This is going to get really soppy.
But, often I find myself wondering what is this emotion that has laid the base for every personal human relation. Why is it said to be so strong and powerful?
You might tell me the feelings I have for my family, my parents and my siblings is none other than love itself. True that, but the category of love that arouses an unconditional loyalty in someone who is not your own is what intrigues me. The way someone can love another person, who if not for interaction would be a mere stranger, by sacrificing freedom and do many other things.
I’ve felt something great for a person just once in my life of seventeen years. It was a strong attraction, a pull almost. It was incredible, confusing and complicated. It drove me to the brink of insanity. Every time my insides tugged at that person’s sight. But, due to certain difficulties I couldn’t be with that person, so I forcefully severed the tie that connected us. It singed a hole in me. But, I can the pain has dimmed.
But, I wish to know if that emotion I experienced was love. It seems silly because I’m just seventeen, but, I remember every detail, every word spoken, every thought, every scent and I can still feel every memory in flesh and color. The hole in my heart still throbs. It is not intolerable.
I guess I’ll not know what I felt was exactly.
So.. Like my previous post said, I joined gym. But, man, is shedding weight hard. Ok, I don’t really want to be ultra-thin. It’s just that I’m sickof my unhealthy lifestyle, and I took the initiative to change it, when I had the time to.
Yes, it’s a bit awkward when you’re the thinnest in the room and people are looking at you and thinking she’s alright wonder why she wants to reduce weight, it’s not like she looks like a hotdog.
Well, so I did various machines and I have to say I liked the cross-trainer machine the best, because by using it I actually felt the calories burn.
Also, besides this I’ve got loads of other things going on in my life. For instance, I planning to visit this garden which is very unique because it’s entirely made of flowers, the gates, the topiary and the cottages. It’s a pretty magical place.
I’ll chilling with my friends tomorrow, we will go to the cinema and catch Jack The Giant Slayer after lunch and probably, go bowling later. On Wednesday, I’ll be looking forward to another movie with two of my other friends. Too many movies!
Then comes a party on Friday, where I’m sure I’ll have quite some fun and there’s the picnic on Saturday.
So, my holidays have begun.. And, I’ve been reading and deciding on whether or not to go to gym. Also, I’ve been to a nail art salon and partied till I had five shoe-bites in a total.
I met my best friend for the first time on the first day of fourth grade. To be completely honest I hated her back then, because I suffered from every girl’s petty insecurity of not looking good(Yes, this was in fourth grade), also because she seemed to make friends more easily than I did.
I think she sensed that, and also, I was quite openly rude to her. But, one day I decided to put everything aside and be her friend because I didn’t like disliking people for no apparent reason. So, I shook her hand that day, not knowing she’d turn out to be the best friend that would be irreplaceable. I tried to be nice to her henceforth.